FIGHTING TO KNOW JESUS IS RIDDLED WITH JOY AND DIFFICULTY, AS IS MOTHERHOOD. IF WE EMBRACE THIS, IT WILL BRING US TO A PLACE THAT ONLY GOD CAN BRING REST TO AND SUSTAIN US IN. THIS IS WHERE DEEP JOY IS FOUND.

Miscarriage and the Mother's Heart

Miscarriage and the Mother's Heart

Written by Claire McCann

June 8th, 2011

I remember that day like it was yesterday....I was in Texas for my dad's surgery, away from Zach, and started having contractions that led to my water breaking in Ross while I was strolling my 6 month old son. I was 9 weeks pregnant and still in denial that this was happening. That strong heartbeat I saw and heard just days before was now gone and so was part of me....

I read and dwelled on this verse that day and Jesus just met me in my brokenness....

Acts 2:25-29 "'I saw the Lord always before me, for he is at my right hand that I may not be shaken;therefore my heart was glad, and my tongue rejoiced; my flesh also will dwell in hope.For you will not abandon my soul to Hades, or let your Holy One see corruption.You have made known to me the paths of life; you will make me full of gladness with your presence.'

Miscarriage is like the elephant in the room. The weight of it bears heavily on the Momma but often it goes unspoken. Leaving her to either shrivel inside and choose to be numb or stuff the pain down deep thinking it won't resurface. I remember feeling responsible to some degree, like I did something wrong that caused this to happen. The enemy lies close by in the midst of tragedy and will attempt to steal hope at every turn.

It's important to know it's OK to grieve....

It's OK to acknowledge the loss you feel.... Every life matters.

It's OK for it to be a process of healing that takes time....

Most importantly we must lean on Christ for the strength to enter the pain and sorrow of loss with Jesus and others surrounding us so that deep healing can come...we are too weak on our own.....

The beauty of this scripture in Acts is the reminder that He has not left us in our broken state alone. He in fact is longing to fill us with hope if we get in His presence. I know it sounds counter intuitive but the truth of scripture is not only there in the easy times but still faithful in the times of loss. He can still be our joy. He can still be our hope. He can still fill us with gladness in Him in the moments of despair. 

Mother's Day is not just to celebrate those who have children of their own to love and hold but also for those whose arms are empty and there is longing but they still choose to give. Your Momma heart is invaluable.... It is needed and essential to someone. Thank you for giving yourself.... 

Though our lives display different scars, we can all walk alongside one another with the same goal in mind. We can give of our time to hear another momma's heartache and enter into their grief without comparrison. This doesn't require perfect words but instead someone who loves others as they are.... in the middle of their brokenness. We all are broken in some way.... we need the hearts of other Momma's to just listen and care. To be there in silence, with tears is sometimes more healing than a thousand words.

Take the world, but give me Jesus,

Sweetest comfort of my soul;
With my Savior watching o’er me,
I can sing though billows roll.

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