FIGHTING TO KNOW JESUS IS RIDDLED WITH JOY AND DIFFICULTY, AS IS MOTHERHOOD. IF WE EMBRACE THIS, IT WILL BRING US TO A PLACE THAT ONLY GOD CAN BRING REST TO AND SUSTAIN US IN. THIS IS WHERE DEEP JOY IS FOUND.

Your struggles are your catapult.

Your struggles are your catapult.

I have a lifelong struggle with sleep. 

If my exhaustion isn't from one of our 5 children or the 1,000 other things I do in a day...

it's from insomnia. 

I even remember having insomnia when I was a little girl. I'd be anxious for bedtime to come because I knew I'd be awake later than everyone else and couldn't help it. 

You'd think since I've been sleep deprived for so long I'd be over it and sleep like a baby! Not so, again I was up most of the night last night for no reason, fully awake and exhausted at the same time. 

Although I hate to admit it, my usual response is frustration. I can get angry that I am so tired but can't sleep....

I know this will lead to a more difficult day tomorrow and I've just always wished I would sleep easier.

I'm sure you've got things you wish came easier to you too....

Patience with other people's driving...

Being successful...

Making money...

Being Godly...

Obedient children...

Good health...

Loosing weight...

Forgiving someone...

On and on I could go.

I believe God allows these "frustrating struggles" as a way to remind us of our great need of Him.

I know it sounds silly but insomnia for me (though very frustrating) has carved out a time with God amidst the madness called life. It's brought me to my knees as I feel anxious about how I will manage the next day's homeschooling, house cleaning, discipling, all while training and equipping 5 children. It's shown me the wickedness deep within when I "feel justified" in my sinful reactions because I am so sorely sleep deprived. It's created a space that only God can bring rest to and sustain me in. 

No doubt every so called struggle is meant to do this...

To bring you to a glaring awareness of your desperate need for Christ and the illusion of your control and strength.

These constant frustrating reminders can draw us from God or towards Him but it all depends on what you choose....

Think about your struggles and sink into them a bit to see what God is trying to do IN you there....

There have been plenty of times when God's arm has been extended, ready to give me the rest my soul needs but I've been too frustrated to receive it. 

Honestly, I don't even see His offer many times...

But at 2am this morning I did... 

And I pray you can too.

The struggle you have is meant to catapult you somewhere...

YOU decide the target...

May your struggles and frustrations catapult you to the feet of Jesus. May you be keenly aware of His extended hand in the midst of your mess and may you grab it and allow Him to draw you out of it and to Himself.

He will make you clean again. He will bring the hope of change. He will remove guilt. He will sustain you.

“I lay down and slept; I woke again, for the Lord sustained me.”

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭3:5‬ ‭ESV‬‬

The Picture Perfect Mom

The Picture Perfect Mom

You. Are. WORTHY.

You. Are. WORTHY.