FIGHTING TO KNOW JESUS IS RIDDLED WITH JOY AND DIFFICULTY, AS IS MOTHERHOOD. IF WE EMBRACE THIS, IT WILL BRING US TO A PLACE THAT ONLY GOD CAN BRING REST TO AND SUSTAIN US IN. THIS IS WHERE DEEP JOY IS FOUND.

In the waiting...

In the waiting...

I strongly dislike waiting...

No one likes to wait.

 

At the center of all things in our lives... 

waiting is involved.

We wait for our hard work and wise choices to prove worthwhile in financial flourishing...

In the discomfort of big decisions that we have no direction for...

In the angst of a hurricane and uncertainty of its arrival...

In the fear of test results when the silence is deafening...

For the positive pregnancy test or finalized adoption...

For the exhausting 40 weeks of pregnancy where your body is not your own...

In the unknowns of your child's health or poor decisions...

It's easy to truly know God is working good for us in all things but...

the clencher is how long will that process take and...

just how painful will it be???

Leaning into Christ in the silent chaos of the waiting period often feels like leaning into the air off a cliff...

Precarious and terrifying...

And yet it is these moments that will, in turn, shape us...

Will we lean on Him to the point that we give up full control?

That point where we loose all stability on our own...

Where we have to trust our all-knowing Creator is at work and in full control.

This is the place character is shaped.

The fire of uncertainty shapes the purity of our faith.

Oh how often we wish to be delivered from the waiting period...

From the discomfort of our discontentment... 

In these moments of silent waiting...

When no answer or direction feels crushing...

When we're unable to muster the strength for hope...

We must remember...

Remember the faithfulness of God in your life yesterday and that He will not change.

This theme runs constant in scripture... 

It's the perspective shift that occurs during the wait that makes it worth all the agonizing days...

Weeks...

Years... 

of seemingly unanswered promises.

This healthy perspective is that He is our deepest need all along... 

and HE COMES IN THE WAITING.

He comes in the discomfort.

He meets us in the moments where we are under so much pressure we feel we can't bear it.

The awareness that He is giving us our deepest need in giving us more of Himself...

When we realize that MORE OF HIM is worth giving up our momentary comfort...

Laying down our plan of how He should meet our needs...

The perspective that all along...

He has been graciously taking our hands off of what we want and giving us what we didn't know we desperately needed.

The Spirit of the living God, His power and perspective...

The realization that I no longer want my way because the goodness I've found IN HIM...

IS BETTER.

He is better than my freshly laid plans coming into fruition.

This newfound closeness to Him is better than my comfort in temporary pleasures being satisfied.

This promise from Him being accomplished is no longer the goal...

But instead, my perspective being anchored into more of Him and contentment there...

in the midst of uncertainty...

is the goal.

What we do in the waiting seasons will make or break us...

He is not unaware of our struggle...

He is not an inattentive Father...

He is not hiding Himself to tease us...

He is shaping the perspective that He is our greatest need and nearness to us is what He is after.

Body image struggles...

Body image struggles...

When your child embarrasses you...

When your child embarrasses you...