FIGHTING TO KNOW JESUS IS RIDDLED WITH JOY AND DIFFICULTY, AS IS MOTHERHOOD. IF WE EMBRACE THIS, IT WILL BRING US TO A PLACE THAT ONLY GOD CAN BRING REST TO AND SUSTAIN US IN. THIS IS WHERE DEEP JOY IS FOUND.

But who do YOU say I am?

But who do YOU say I am?

We all begin life with questions.

 

Who am I?

Am I good enough?

Do I have what it takes?

Am I loved?

Am I worthy?

 

As a child we want our parent’s actions to answer these questions so that we feel whole and confident in ourselves. Giving us firm ground to stand on. A place we find our identity and feel satisfied. We eventually grow up enough to be aware of our parents humanity and their inability to answer these questions for us in a way that creates true security. We will one day learn they were never meant to perfectly answer all your longings anyways...

Then friends take that opportunity to answer those questions. They tell you if your wanted and enough to be loved. We are still unaware of the gaping hole inside of us that is driving our quest in search of those answers...

We let our natural abilities and gifting bring quiet to the noise of those yearning questions....Whether it be intelligence, attractiveness or accomplishments. These dull the ache for a while until yet another filler tries to satisfy...

We get married and carry that heavy weight of being named “enough” and place that expectation on our spouse. Now it is their responsibility to perform for us to find stable ground to stand on in the midst of life’s quakeing. 

Through all our demanding, all of these areas only brings more pain, emptiness and longing to find those questions answered. So we continue the search...

Now those we esteem are to carry the burden of proving we are valuable. Those in authority over us or those we want to notice us, now hold the keys to our souls longing. If only they were capable of doing the very thing we need...

We find comfort in the Fans life brings our way. Those who flatter us; as we think they are answering our core longings... when in reality they are distracting us from the very One who has named us from the beginning.

Then one day we see we unknowingly have looked to our children to see the questions inside us, still unanswered, satisfied. Hoping they will help you feel confident and affirm the enough-ness you’re still questioning...

In all of our searching... 

battered and broken we end up before our Maker.

Still holding tightly to the questions we desperately long to have answered...

 

He alone answers the gnawing questions that define us.

 

Our Majestic Creator defines us with something greater than performance or achievements...

He defines us with Himself.

We are delighted in; not put up with.

We are enough; because His calling on our lives is not based on our performance.

We are worthy because He poured His invaluable blood out on our behalf.

We have what it takes to accomplish everything He has entrusted to us.

We are made in His image...

We are loved.

We are children of God.

Clawing for these questions to be answered by anyone else will only cause more brokenness and pain...

Every other source we look to to name us is a dry well...

He alone quenches our thirst and though our searching has wearied us and heaped impossible expectations on those we love...

Though our quest and searching dry wells has broken relationships and crushed many in its wake...

The same source that purposely created the space for those questions, knowing it would need to be filled...

Has already filled the space that was lacking with an abundance....

 

If we are willing to tap into the right source.

 

How good is He that He even uses the wreckage we create in our journey for our good and His glory....

Let HIM be your inexhaustible well that answers who you are and who you are to be.

Motherhood is a magnifying glass to our flaws

Motherhood is a magnifying glass to our flaws