FIGHTING TO KNOW JESUS IS RIDDLED WITH JOY AND DIFFICULTY, AS IS MOTHERHOOD. IF WE EMBRACE THIS, IT WILL BRING US TO A PLACE THAT ONLY GOD CAN BRING REST TO AND SUSTAIN US IN. THIS IS WHERE DEEP JOY IS FOUND.

Walk INTO your self-doubt

Walk INTO your self-doubt

I have a propensity of second guessing myself…

Like, should I read a book in my free time or clean the house or exercise or grocery shop or pluck my eyebrows or do my nails or prep lunches or research nutrition info…

It’s an issue.

The older I get, I find that same underlying questioning to be more invasive that I was aware.

I have feared unknowns and craved security; therefore, I have limited myself.

How many of us do that?

Women tend to risk or attempt ONLY something if they are fully confident in their ability to succeed…

We want to run AWAY from the things we doubt ourselves in...

OH how this LIMITS us!

I did not think I could be a runner but just started running (hobbling) anyway.

I did not think I was capable of running an entire 5k and signed up to run one a few months after my 5th child was born (just to get some alone time)...

I ran the whole 5k.

I truly didn’t think I was capable of running a 10k and then I did.

I was sure a half-marathon was more than I could handle, but timidly signed up and trained…

I ran that sucker the whole 13.1 miles while pregnant.

I was confident in my running, but doubtful of my ability to finish 26.2 miles.

I finished that full marathon only 6 months after my 6th child was born.

Do you notice a pattern?

It took me a while to notice it and still fight to be attentive to it…

I am the one who limits myself.

I am the one who allows my potential to be capped.

I am capable of SO MUCH more than I “feel” that I am.

So are YOU.

If we let our feelings of self-doubt lead us…

It will lead us to an illusion of safety.

True safety is impossible because life is painful and difficult; even when we try to protect ourselves from it.

The illusion of safety will keep us trapped.

We will never push past our limitations to see…

THAT WE ARE CAPABLE OF MORE.

The illusion of safety will never allow us to be desperately dependent on God because we want to hold the keys to our security.

We have to allow ourselves to see what God is calling us to, and be willing to walk INTO our self-doubt…

Knowing it will likely “feel” impossible…

BUT THAT is the very place our limitations will not OWN us.

In that “feeling” of the unknown, when we are walking INTO those things we doubt our ability to achieve…

THAT is the very moment we begin to acknowledge the dreams God has given us ARE possible.


1st Full Week of College=My Worst Case Scenario

1st Full Week of College=My Worst Case Scenario